Saturday 3 November 2007

Ego

Finally I'm beginning to understand the meaning of ancient words "My children know you not that the earth and all that dwells therein is but a reflection of the kingdom of the heavenly Father' in relation to my situation at home, especially with my love one.
My frustration over his way of being mirrors exactly his behaviour and my reaction to it. I create my own world.
It's so simple. Our feelings and emotions together with our thoughts compose our world. If I change my feelings towards my love one and my attitude towards his way of being, feel compassion and love, it will have an effect on him. That love and compassion will be reflected back, the universe will mirror it back.
It's a beautiful concept by which our ancient ancestors lived and which we should adapt in our lives to create peace and harmony on our planet earth.
My goal in life is to unite with Christ and Buddha consciousness, to feel love and compassion towards all living creatures and situations no matter what. To be able to raise the consciousness of our living world I must first harness my ego, which I developed so far in my life. The Ego is the only thing on the way to my goal. However I mustn’t condemn my ego but embrace it and understand its motives. The ego has been with me all my life and I developed patterns and ways of behaviour and belief systems. Now I have to undo it all and learn a new way of thinking, feeling and experiencing life.
I have many tools to help me to accomplish that. Some of them are breathing, yoga and raw food.

Friday 2 November 2007

Creation

I'm so beautifully light at the moment. It's an amazing feeling. It's like all obstacles from my life have been removed and my life is just flowing smooth and easy. I'm not afraid anymore and can embrace everything.
I had a good session with my students today. I really feel that they are learning a lot. I feel so wise and sometimes I wonder where is that knowledge coming from? I just know what to say and see what can be achieved. It's wonderful. Last year I was wishing to work at the University level or Drama School so I can pass my knowledge and develop myself with more joy. I have just realised that I don't have to change my job and find the students but they will find me. They have already found me. I can teach them on a higher level, it's all down to me. I can create. I'm learning more and more about creation every day. It's fascinating. We are creating every minute of our life. The Universe reflects everything we do, our feelings, emotions and thoughts.
Until not so long ago I was in a deep sleep, confused and angry entangled with my thoughts, shaken by my emotions, not in control of my feelings. Now I discovered that there are 3 elements, which can help me to create my life. I have to re-learn how to live in a conscious and creative way.
How? It's simple but it will take time to put it into action. Thoughts are powerful but need to be harnessed. Through yoga and conscious breathing I can clear the stream of thoughts. I'm trying to be aware of my thinking process and reduce it to minimum. There is so much clatter going on, so much traffic, which needs to be directed and controlled.
Emotions ruled my life and I was certainly not in control of them but they were in control of me. I was acting mainly through emotions. They had such power over me! Now I'm learning how to be aware of them and keep them in at the right distance.
Feelings were just sweeping through me like weather. I felt all the emotions very deeply but didn't know how to direct them so they were just passing by.
Now I'm beginning to understand the power of thought, emotion and feelings unified together. If I want to create something I just need to think about it, bring the emotion to the surface, usually love, and evoke the feeling to touch it and sense it in my imagination. That is the secret of creation!