Last night I almost managed to sleep in awareness. Usually I go to bed, read few pages of the book and off I go into a deep sleep, turning on my side or my tummy, face squashed against the pillow.
Last night was different.
I was trying to sleep on my back for some time now with some difficulty I must say. However I have improved a lot and yesterday I slept all night on my back. I also went into a deep meditation focusing on breathing when I closed my eyes and decided to fell asleep. I was breathing for a long time and went almost into a trance. I felt good and relaxed and I knew I could go on like that for a whole night. Fortunately or unfortunately I fell asleep but I was waking up few times during the night. I was aware what I was doing. I was also exited about getting up in the morning and going to work. I was wondering if I would be tired the next day because according to gained experiences so far I should be exhausted.
I woke up fresh and energised at 6am in the morning and I fell asleep I think between 1-2am. I worked all day without one yawn and now I'm still awake at 11pm not feeling tired at all. Amazing. I also did some deep breathing exercises outside first thing followed by ashtanga yoga for 30min. Not bad. I hope I can keep that pattern going for some time.
I wonder how I feel tomorrow?
Monday 29 October 2007
Breath
I have been aware of breathing for some time and read a lot on this subject. Yoga has helped me to develop my breathing and information from books and tapes helped me to be more aware of my breath. However yesterday for the first time I was consciously breathing for almost the whole day. It was difficult but very rewarding. I was trying to breath slowly and into my lungs not the tummy and it was challenging.
Today things were different because I went to work and I have lost myself in it. I still remembered from time to time about my conscious breathing but not very often. I managed to go outside once and stood by the tree in the sun. That was lovely.
I also took my friend out of the office during lunchtime for a short walk to the park. Very rewarding. I shall do that every day, well except when it's raining.
When I'm aware of my breath I'm focused and calm. It seems that I do slow down but that's only an illusion, I'm just more focused and organised. I'm simply much more aware of myself. Tomorrow I'm teaching so I'll try to stay focused or just be aware of my breath.
Breath is life. Our life starts with the first breathe and finishes with the last one. We take it for granted, we are breathing with no awareness. Unfortunately we are doing lots of things without awareness in our daily lives. We are eating without putting any attention to food often watching TV, reading newspaper or getting involved in a dispute at the dinner table.
I was a very good example of that. I specially liked watching TV and eating lying on my sofa in the living room. What a comfortable, blind state of being. I was basically not present. I came to this planet Earth to live a conscious happy life; meanwhile I was sleeping, living in an illusion and wondering why life is not fare.
Today things were different because I went to work and I have lost myself in it. I still remembered from time to time about my conscious breathing but not very often. I managed to go outside once and stood by the tree in the sun. That was lovely.
I also took my friend out of the office during lunchtime for a short walk to the park. Very rewarding. I shall do that every day, well except when it's raining.
When I'm aware of my breath I'm focused and calm. It seems that I do slow down but that's only an illusion, I'm just more focused and organised. I'm simply much more aware of myself. Tomorrow I'm teaching so I'll try to stay focused or just be aware of my breath.
Breath is life. Our life starts with the first breathe and finishes with the last one. We take it for granted, we are breathing with no awareness. Unfortunately we are doing lots of things without awareness in our daily lives. We are eating without putting any attention to food often watching TV, reading newspaper or getting involved in a dispute at the dinner table.
I was a very good example of that. I specially liked watching TV and eating lying on my sofa in the living room. What a comfortable, blind state of being. I was basically not present. I came to this planet Earth to live a conscious happy life; meanwhile I was sleeping, living in an illusion and wondering why life is not fare.
Sunday 28 October 2007
The ego
I have taken another huge step today in raising my consciousness and understanding who I'm on this planet and what is my purpose of life. I have already figured it out that my life purpose is to raise my own consciousness and therefore help others to realise who they are and leave the mass consciousness.
Today I've understood more clearly the ego. Ego is identification with my own body, with this world, not the planet Earth, not Gaia but the world of illusion, our reality. Now, we project our reality through our thoughts. This is very important to understand. Our thoughts create our world and that world is the illusion we live in. We identify ourselves with this world and therefore suffer greatly. We over identify ourselves with our bodies, our possessions and the opinions of others.
How silly is that! Finally that is so clear to me.
This is so simple and I heard it so many times form so many sources, it is so simple. Life is so simple. We make it so difficult and complicated; we overcomplicate it with our dramas, our self-inflicted sufferings. We get caught in it, as we are so blind.
We simply forget that God has created us and we project ourselves on this planet as humans to realise God, to be creators, to manifest God. I was told that so many times but today finally it makes so much more sense!
How many times I've heard that saying that we are One? Now I understand, we are One creation of God and we manifest ourselves on this planet in the forms of bodies to create, to manifest God. Why don't they teach us this at school?
It's so simple.
We are the essence of God and we project ourselves as forms (humans) on this planet. The essence is One bur there are many forms. Form = ego = duality, fear, separation and illusion.
Today I've understood more clearly the ego. Ego is identification with my own body, with this world, not the planet Earth, not Gaia but the world of illusion, our reality. Now, we project our reality through our thoughts. This is very important to understand. Our thoughts create our world and that world is the illusion we live in. We identify ourselves with this world and therefore suffer greatly. We over identify ourselves with our bodies, our possessions and the opinions of others.
How silly is that! Finally that is so clear to me.
This is so simple and I heard it so many times form so many sources, it is so simple. Life is so simple. We make it so difficult and complicated; we overcomplicate it with our dramas, our self-inflicted sufferings. We get caught in it, as we are so blind.
We simply forget that God has created us and we project ourselves on this planet as humans to realise God, to be creators, to manifest God. I was told that so many times but today finally it makes so much more sense!
How many times I've heard that saying that we are One? Now I understand, we are One creation of God and we manifest ourselves on this planet in the forms of bodies to create, to manifest God. Why don't they teach us this at school?
It's so simple.
We are the essence of God and we project ourselves as forms (humans) on this planet. The essence is One bur there are many forms. Form = ego = duality, fear, separation and illusion.
Friday 26 October 2007
Raw Food
I used to love eating, everything and there was no food I didn't like. I've eaten a huge variety of foods in my life but when I was starting to wake up I gave up meat. Then I was searching for a perfect diet. I've tried lots of different approaches wanting to be healthy and loose some creeping pounds, which I was gaining more and more as I was getting older.
Finally two years ago I found it. A raw food book landed in my hands and I couldn't put it down. That was it and I was hooked. I’ve decided to try it for a week and two years later I'm still with it.
There is a huge difference between my first attempts of eating raw and what I'm eating now. I've learnt so much about healthy eating, my body and become more spiritual. I didn't realised that food has so much to do with spirituality.
At the beginning I wasn't eating only raw food as I was transitioning and occasionally had cooked meal, mainly when I was socialising. It was also very difficult for me to give up wine and cheese, which I finally did this September.
Now I'm mainly eating superfoods and I'm still researching and experimenting with this amazing way of eating.
When I'm talking about raw food diet I don't mean carrot and celery sticks but delicious dips, crackers, raw pizza, raw lasagne, soups and best of all, raw chocolate, all of which I make myself.
Today my cupboard is stocked up with goji berries, chocolate chips and powder, hemp seeds, flax seeds, spirulina, green algae, seaweeds and variety of oils.
I'm fortunate enough to have a large garden so I have my own supply of salad and other vegetables.
I'm growing my own food and nourish my body and at the same time I also nourish my soul. Raw food gave me so much clean, light energy, abundance of new energy. I sleep less and I'm not tired anymore. My head is clear and my heart if full of love.
Finally two years ago I found it. A raw food book landed in my hands and I couldn't put it down. That was it and I was hooked. I’ve decided to try it for a week and two years later I'm still with it.
There is a huge difference between my first attempts of eating raw and what I'm eating now. I've learnt so much about healthy eating, my body and become more spiritual. I didn't realised that food has so much to do with spirituality.
At the beginning I wasn't eating only raw food as I was transitioning and occasionally had cooked meal, mainly when I was socialising. It was also very difficult for me to give up wine and cheese, which I finally did this September.
Now I'm mainly eating superfoods and I'm still researching and experimenting with this amazing way of eating.
When I'm talking about raw food diet I don't mean carrot and celery sticks but delicious dips, crackers, raw pizza, raw lasagne, soups and best of all, raw chocolate, all of which I make myself.
Today my cupboard is stocked up with goji berries, chocolate chips and powder, hemp seeds, flax seeds, spirulina, green algae, seaweeds and variety of oils.
I'm fortunate enough to have a large garden so I have my own supply of salad and other vegetables.
I'm growing my own food and nourish my body and at the same time I also nourish my soul. Raw food gave me so much clean, light energy, abundance of new energy. I sleep less and I'm not tired anymore. My head is clear and my heart if full of love.
Monday 22 October 2007
This blogg is my personal encounter with this Universe, which I would like to share with other people on a similar journey. Everybody on this planet Earth is on the road, their own road to enlightenment, and their own journey to find out who they are and what is their mission as they travel through the Universe.
After 45 years on this planet I have realised that my job, not the one you go to every day and get paid for but the life job, the Earth job is to be a teacher, a teacher of consciousness. Myself I have still a lot to learn as I have just entered this magical journey with being aware of where I'm and what I'm doing. Until now I was following this road but not knowing where it leads and what am I suppose to do. The road was taking me somewhere, I was passing the crossroads taking the turnings by off chance, jumping the paddles, following it step by step going left, right, passing by many signs not knowing where I was and what I was doing most of the time.
About 7 years ago I started to see a small light in a distance, something changed within me and I realised that all my walking time on this planet I was asleep and not only in this life. I was here before and I was in a very deep sleep following that dark, foggy road, swimming in a soup of heavy human consciousness.
This was my first step, now I have just made another one. On September the 18th 2007 our planet Earth made a step too, a huge quantum leap step. This time I was awake and jumped on it with open eyes.
After 45 years on this planet I have realised that my job, not the one you go to every day and get paid for but the life job, the Earth job is to be a teacher, a teacher of consciousness. Myself I have still a lot to learn as I have just entered this magical journey with being aware of where I'm and what I'm doing. Until now I was following this road but not knowing where it leads and what am I suppose to do. The road was taking me somewhere, I was passing the crossroads taking the turnings by off chance, jumping the paddles, following it step by step going left, right, passing by many signs not knowing where I was and what I was doing most of the time.
About 7 years ago I started to see a small light in a distance, something changed within me and I realised that all my walking time on this planet I was asleep and not only in this life. I was here before and I was in a very deep sleep following that dark, foggy road, swimming in a soup of heavy human consciousness.
This was my first step, now I have just made another one. On September the 18th 2007 our planet Earth made a step too, a huge quantum leap step. This time I was awake and jumped on it with open eyes.
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