Polyphasic Sleep Day 1e

Every day is a new beginning and that’s how I’m going to look at it. Fresh start and a new tactic to return to the clear uberman schedule. The tactic? Alarm clock in a distane so I’ll have to get up to turn it off.
Last night yet again I lost my game in the early hours of the morning. I went for the 4am nap and woke up at around 7am. How? Don’t know. I must of switched the alarm off and went back to sleep but I can’t remember. When I woke up after 7am I decided to go back to sleep until my 8am nap. There was no point of getting up and then going back for a nap again and I didn’t feel like going without one straight till midday.
So I slept till 8.30 and then had breakfast in bed and read a book, I think I even went for another snooze. Finally I got au at 11am! I decided to miss the midday nap. Disappointed? Yes, a little but I’m not giving up. I thought about it during my long walk today. The journey is difficult but I’m also learning so much from it.
I’m definitely training my will power and discipline. I’m also learning how to control my emotions, which is mainly observing my ego. This journey is not a battle. There is no winners or losers. I call it a game but it’s not either. It’s difficult to realise that and to stay calm whatever the circumstances. I’m not treating this challenge as an end goal task.
I’ve just realised now that I will always have to be alert even if I manage to stay on a very strict uberman schedule for a month. No doubt after the month I would like to go further and further so the journey never ends and that is the challenge.
That is the purpose of my life – to keep going, to continue the journey and stay very awake and very alert. The 30 day challenge will just help me to establish a new way of being.
After my walk I made my green raw soup. I missed it. Since Christmas lunch I have been eating my Christmas meal every day, which is delicious but it’s all dehydrated food and I missed the green, more live stuff.
After 4pm nap I went to cinema with Paul to see a film called ‘Australia’. Amazing. I loved it. Absolutely beautiful film. It was very long so my next nap was at 8.30pm. That’s fine. I also moved my midnight nap about 20 min. later.
It’s 1.40am now and I feel really good. I’m planning to watch another film at 2am, “The Fountain” is on TV at that time. I watched this film long time ago (also on TV) but wasn’t totally in it. I can’t remember but there were some distractions at home. I really wanted to see it again, and here it is as I wished.
I have watched the film and I really enjoyed it. Something strange struck me. I really liked the main actor in the ‘Australia’ film and made an effort to remember his name. Hugh Jackman. I’m really not good with it and don’t know names of many actor’s or celebrities.
What was strange that the main actor in ‘The Fountain’ was also Hugh Jackman.

My 4am nap was a success. I got up after the alarm, put the lights on max and managed to lay in bed for another 15 min. I felt bit groggy and disorientated but I knew that will pass if I’ll engage myself in some activities.
I did some domestic stuff and then yoga. Yoga always brings me back to the alert state. It’s 6.15am and I feel really good. I’m going to write some e-mails and read my book.
I’ll be back after 8am nap and if I succeed that will be my first day in block ‘e’ (the fourth take).