polyphasic sleeping three weeks on

Friday
Yesterday and last night went pretty well but I’m not in a good mood now. Well, I’m crossed with myself. I keep oversleeping! Last night I was waking up as normal until 4am nap, where I slept till 6am. Then at 8am nap I slept till 9.15am. I was a little bit crossed then and was wondering if my alarm was working. Yes, it was.
At midday nap I overslept again! This was too much. I’ve checked the alarm clock on my phone again, no it wasn’t working…
I found a proper alarm at home and didn’t oversleep 4pm nap. I was happy to be on track again until…8pm nap, yes, I overslept again. I set the alarm wrong…grrrhhhrr…

Saturday
I must say this was the best night ever. I was fully awake at all times! Yes, I know it was easy because I’ve accumulated all this sleep in my oversleeping naps but still, I managed to keep the loop going with no crisis and my midnight and 4am naps were as they should be, short and sweet. I wasn’t feeling any grogginess. At 5am I was marking assignments!
I’m now about to have my 8am nap. I just did some yoga and feel so good.

Lately I have been a little bit off my track, not myself. I slipped, became too lazy and mentally I started doubting myself. Last night I did some inventory of myself.
The year is closing down now and I felt uneasy. I looked into my goals from 2008 and lots of them were on a go but some were just neglected.
I also decided to get to the bottom of my uneasiness and find out why I was becoming more lazy and unmotivated. My eating habits were creeping back, I started eating more and more cooked food. Something was not right. Last night I decided to get to the bottom of this.
I think I found the answer. Three years ago when I went full time in my job I was very happy and at the same time this gave me the excuse to stop searching for what I really wanted from life. I never worked full time in one place. I never had a job from 9-5 so I wanted to try it. I forgot my promise as a little girl that I will never do that.
However the prospect of full time job, the status and the salary was very tempting and rewarding. At the same time I was diminishing the true voice inside me nagging me that this is not it. I ignored it and kept telling myself that this is my true calling. I loved teaching and I still do but the institution was starting to eat me up.
This year I became more and more irritable with myself. I started noticing more and more how this job was restricting my freedom. The fact that I’m working for an institution was really bugging me. Still, I kept telling myself that I needed to do my job because I need to be there for the kids, I’m the one to help them.

…just got up from my 8am nap, 10 min before the alarm thinking that I overslept again as I felt so refreshed. To my relieve it was only 8.20. Great.

New decisions. I know for certain that I need to quit that job and regain my freedom. The polyphasic sleeping will help me as I have more time on my hands to do what I really want. I’m going to practice more affirmations and the law of attraction. I believe, from now on, that next year I won’t be teaching in the College. I know that this sounds almost impossible because at the moment we are mostly living from my salary but anything is possible as long as I change my belief system.
Freedom is on my way. Abundance is on my way. Creativity is on my way.